Saturday, January 06, 2007

The New Years' Blues

Well, I've got the blues. And NOT for Kraft Macaroni and Cheese. Every time Anne and Bryan go home Jeff and I have a couple days of moping around, but this time has been particularly hard. I think that it must be because they actually moved over the break to Georgia and we've never seen their house or their school or anything. Everything is new for them, and although they were excited to be starting a new chapter in their lives, there was also some understandable nervousness and fear about this new place. I think that it transferred to me, because watching them get on that plane to go home was pretty hard.

I find myself in somewhat of a "gap". A lot of my readers will remember a similar blog posting by a good friend of mine about being in the gap. There are several situations happening in my life that I know are of God, and yet it requires patience and waiting. In my heart I know that I am prepared to wait, it's just that sometimes the waiting is, well, kind of boring. After the excitement of Christmas and the plateau of New Year's Eve, I find that my house is a mess, Jack is sick with a cold or teeth or both, Jeff is frantically working on a video editing project for church that is due in a couple of days, and I am left to myself with my melancholic thoughts. I am very thankful for my friend Gaylene, who is working her butt off on my eliptical as I write this, because she is always around to help cheer me up. I am also thankful that my husband has such a servant's heart and is doing so much to serve in the church. I think I need a party or something, you know? Any body want to come party with me? I was looking at all the fun pictures from my friend G-knee's party and that just depressed me even more! So maybe I just need to invite all of my readers to come and hang out with me, k? I'll see you around 7! I don't have any cool video games but I can make some great appetizers!

Comin'?

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

You need a vacation...

I always plan "pretend" vacations in January.

Although, it is a little less gratifying when you have a sicko at your feet-You know, way more obvious that you're not REALLY going to the beach next week! :)

I love that in your "blues"...your friend worked out while you blogged! That is so way my style!

Setrn said...

hmm, at least gap dwellers aren't alone!

kristi (hightower) edwards said...

Hi, Betty - I've been checking your blog now and then. I know what you mean about being in the "gap". Mark and I moved to Arkansas almost six months ago - the newness is wearing off and I'm getting into "that place", too. Just learning to wait on God with that "so this is my life?" feeling is an everyday choice - to be thankful for the things that you have no control over. thanks for being honest! Kristi

Betty 'Rie said...

A vacation....that's it! Thank you!

Kristi and San, Thank you for your encouragement as I know that lately you have had trials so much greater than mine.

To combat my blues I have started a vigorous work out program. So far I've worked out twice. Ha! Hopefully I keep going.

G-Knee said...

Betts - Yes....PLAN A PARTY...I would come and bring...well...I'd bring an ingredient of some sort so you could create a fabulous meal with it....and then...I would wash your dishes.

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

Jeffo said...

G-Knee - we have dishes right now. Want to come do them and we can talk dates later? :)

just kidding of course...

Jess said...

Can I come over around 7? I'll bring my Jack Jack and he can meet your Jack Jack... I have a Jared Andrew Counterman that we (sometimes)lovingly refer to as Jack...or Jack Jack depending on the situation. I just started blogging myself, but come and see my boys!

G-Knee said...

Hmm...well, I do like to clean...but tonight...uh....hmmm...I have plans..... :)

Jess said...

I actually started looking for you last spring. Did you know that you were not the only Betty Zwolanek in the world? I was a bit surprised. Anyway, I had given up finding a phone number or email for you - then we took our teens on a missions trip to Peru. We stayed with Dave and Kandi Stillwell. It was days into the trip before I made the connection that their home church was Lafeyette. When I asked her if she knew you - she said that she was very good friends with someone you very good friends with and that you had gotten married. I was so excited for you! I know that each of us before God don't deserve anything (including life), but you deserved a new start! And then to find your blog (I googled you and found the mbbc blog thing) and see a little boy that very much resembles Jason and is almost the same age as my little one...it was terrific. I have prayed for you on a number of occasions and thought of you often. Once Kandi knew that I knew you - she said, "Wow - you guys could pass for sisters...even your personalities are similar." I guess even as we grow older and (hopefully) more mature, we still can't escape the fact that we've bonded over various unusual circumstances...first babysitter, ordainer of my first marriage =-), fellow Trojan, mutually scaring from a certain ministry, Melford dorm lover, and many more... I would really like to keep in touch better - and I know that responsibility mostly falls on me...and I'm working on it! Talk to you soon!